Goodbye, Angie

Over the past several days, our 17-year old cat's condition began to deteriorate rapidly. Angie stopped eating, stopped drinking, and couldn't hold herself up anymore. Because my older daughter was planning to come home from college tomorrow to see Angie one more time, I tried to keep Angie alive for just a few more days, coaxing her to eat and drink, trying many different kinds of cat food, tuna, scrambled eggs, cheese, cream, kitty Ensure. But Angie wanted none of it.

angie laying on a peach colored rectangular cushion in front of the stairs of our living room, you can see where the sun is coming through an upper window, making a sunny spot on the floor where she's layingI'd been putting Angie on one of Cabana's dog beds because she hasn't been able to get on or off the couch without help. Being low to the ground, I felt Angie had more freedom to move about if she wanted to. Because she enjoys laying in the sun, I'd put the dog bed in a sunny spot, then scoot it over every so often as the sun moved across the room.

angie on the same cushion, this time on our back patio in front of some scraggly looking nasturtiumsOn previous days, Angie spent most of the time sleeping, but yesterday, she seemed restless and unable to sleep. Every time I looked at her, she was in a different position on the cushion, and her eyes were open and glazed. I knew that she was uncomfortable, perhaps even in pain, although she never made a sound. I knew the day had come to put her down and that my daughter would understand we had to do what was best for Angie. I was grateful for a warm, sunny day so Angie could spend a little time outside on her last day.

cabana is laying next to the cushion that angie is on, both of them in sunshineCabana seemed to sense something and spent some time keeping Angie company and watching over her. Or who knows, maybe she just wanted to lay in the sunshine, too. My hope has always been that Angie and Cabana would be snuggle buddies, and we got pretty close to that toward the end.

As we drove to the vet's office yesterday evening, I was grateful that we had the privilege and blessing of being able to make such a decision for our pet, and I hoped that we will be given the same opportunity with Cabana someday. To get to decide how your pet dies, painlessly and quickly, after a long and carefree life--what an honor that is. Of course, I am sad that we don't have Angie anymore and that my older daughter won't be able to see her when she comes home this weekend. The loss also seems to mark the end of both daughters' childhoods, since they'd had Angie almost their entire lives. That added significance makes the loss even stronger. But Angie's life ended with our final act of love toward her, and I find great comfort in that.

Rest in peace, lil' Ang. We will always remember you with love.

Susan Campisi  – (January 26, 2012 at 12:14 PM)  

Oh, Angie - what a sweet girl. I'm sorry for your loss but how wonderful she was able to lie in the sun and rest on her last day on this planet and that you were able to ease her pain and help her move on at just the right moment. She had a good, long life filled with love. Every animal should be so lucky.

Kari in Vegas  – (January 26, 2012 at 1:23 PM)  

Rest in peace sweet girl

Stop on by for a visit

Martha G  – (January 26, 2012 at 4:42 PM)  

It took me awhile to accept it, but it is an honor to make that one last loving decision for our pets when it's time. Rest in peace, Angie.

Maggie Mae  – (January 26, 2012 at 6:54 PM)  

We are so sorry for your loss. RIP Sweet Angie.

Maggie Mae, Max and mom

Min  – (January 26, 2012 at 7:31 PM)  

So sorry for you and your family's loss, Mimi. It's so sweet that Cabana kept her company on her last days and that you tried so hard to keep her comfortable.

Becky  – (January 26, 2012 at 8:58 PM)  

Much love to you and your family. It is a gift that we can ease their pain .. but still so hard when we love them so deeply. Thinking about you and your family. It sounded like she had a very sweet last day.

L^2  – (January 27, 2012 at 10:15 AM)  

Sorry for your loss. *hugs*

Beth and Alfie  – (January 27, 2012 at 10:22 AM)  

My heart goes out to you in your time of loss. What wonderful memories you have to treasure. Take care.

Cassie & The Dogs  – (January 27, 2012 at 7:42 PM)  

So sorry for your loss. Rest in peace sweet Angie.

Lisa, Ellie and Vance  – (January 29, 2012 at 9:11 AM)  

Oh, so sorry to hear that about Angie. Such a sweet kitty.

propwash  – (February 6, 2012 at 8:40 PM)  

Oh, RIP sweet little Angie girl. We lost four cats and our German Shepherd this last year. We feel your pain.

Tessa99999  – (February 16, 2012 at 1:11 PM)  

I am so sorry for your loss and your family's. =( I know the feeling of losing an old cat. I felt like the last piece of my childhood died when my cat passed away 2 years ago.

Lauren  – (March 11, 2012 at 5:22 PM)  

That picture of Cabana with Angie is just so sweet... how lucky they were to have each other. I'm so sorry for your loss, Mimi.

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